Hey, how you be doing?
Yeaah, nobody be reading those forum posts anyway so I can do whatever I want *hum* *hum*
AAAASSSS
So, remember when I was talking of a potential release in August.
Yeah remember that?
Curly's Weird Crusade has been, in a WEIRD state! *cue laugh tracks* hahah I will shit on your tombstone.
Okay, more seriously (holy fuck I can't stop laughing while writing this now) Curly's Weird Crusade has been cycling in a little patern for, over a year now?
What started originally as a side project became a hole filled with a one person contribution and the person making it(me) just braindead from all of this.
Curly's Weird Crusade was originally, a side project, it was a mod I would make on my spare time when I had no other things that I'd want to do, it was a mod that just had silly idea and concepts I randomly got while doing other stuff like: What if the first chapter could be skip entirely with the machine gun, what if a narrator just harassed you throughout the game etc etc...
I've kinda had an epiphany over the state of the game in my mind, I realised that I'm not really making the mod for me and my silly ideas, but I'm doing it for someone else, someone else that mainly get the ideas now, that's why I had so little ideas for the mod, it's because I've been focusing too much on it and the mod lost it's meaning, it's original concept to my eyes.
I don't even know if people would like Curly's Weird Crusade and truth be told, I wouldn't care, this mod can flop all it want it won't matter, all I wish is to have something I would grow fond of and have no regrets over little things I did because I wanted it to be this way. No game is perfect, nor is any mod and anybody that dares to call on one hand a mod shitty should give themselves a good look, from what I've seen, people coming to harsh conclusions are also the ones that says the most bullshit in one sitting. The idea of publishing Curly's Weird Crusade didn't cross my mind before I showed it off to the person I was mentionning before, atleast on the forums and Doukutsu Club, it would have been posted here and that's it.
This post is more of a gargle of a mess, it's mostly to express to anyone and maybe someone in particular how I feel toward this, it isn't cancelled or what but I just realized I had other things I were more focused on and I need to focus on them to get better. I'm not mad in any way.
I want to focus on getting better and find the fun of making things for myself first.
Until then, peace. <3
